monolouging 2 my inner child (interlude) Lyrics

["Our egos personalize it and we consider ourselves special cases

'Yes'

But we're really not y'know?

We're- we are part of the whole and everything in the whole transforms all the time

Changes form, transfigures"]

Hello how is everyone doing tonight?

Okay hold up

Does this thing work?

Cool cool alright

I find that isolation's all I really ever feared

This life's a trip but all my life a nigga never steered

A passenger to chaos younger me would sit and stare

Them silent panics kept me safe when crashing out was coming near

The words "I love you" never felt sincere

Feel like a burden after high school why the fuck it feel like no one cares

I never listened they would talk and I would never hear

But now the world is walking and I'm stuck with climbing up these stairs

And no one's ever there

Don't need reminders that I'm lost I've been well aware

I been so bent on going up I couldn't see

The whole time I was climbing

Life been moving on

I ain't get anywhere

Been stuck between pursuing comfort fitting in with peers

Then seeing all my niggas blow up while I'm switching gears

I don't get jealous but quick to compare

I beat myself up a lot

I know that that shit isn't fair

And to my love

I hope you never leave

Saw me at my lowest and you gave the boy serenity

Your voice like angel when you talk it feels like heaven sings

Thank you for being part of all these silly dreams

Clouds taught me sometimes hell and peace

Are only but a step apart control is what you need releasing

You came around when I thought lowly of myself

After my big heartbreak

Thinking that she's the reason

I used to blame Aaliyah

For all my self hate and deprecation

I figured all my love was lost within our separation

Turned workaholic I thought maybe she'd come back

If I got richer when she left and get attracted to my destination

Then she apologized

And that shit left me with a revelation

In a sense I'm hella patient now I see the good in everyone

And that's on meditation

(I think it help me with my elevation)

I find that isolation's all I really ever feared

This life a trip but all my life a nigga never steered

A passenger to chaos younger me would sit and stare

Them silent panics kept me safe when crashing out was coming near

The words "I love you" never felt sincere

Feel like a burden after high school why the fuck it feel like no one cares

I never listened they would talk and I would never hear

But now the world is walking and I'm stuck with climbing up these stairs

["Your a special case

'It's cause I'm your mama'

No

No this

I know this transfigure-

I know I know I know

But c'mon there's no way to stop the heartbreak

How do you s-

What do you do about that?

'You cry

You cry'