I Can't Do This (Interlude) Lyrics

It took you until 22, 22, to go back to school

Thought you'd be at the supermarket your whole life

Clearly therapy has not worked

And your anxiety is driving me up the walls

It's been too much

It's been stressing me out

You can't handle it

You can't handle any of it

You still smoke weed

And this whole little music thing that you have going on right now

Yeah, alright

Good luck with that

It's never happening

Ever

Listen to me

You're a great guy, but I just

I can't do this

Fuck

Fuck

Ain't shit you can say to me that I haven't said myself five inches from a mirror

Through all the shit I ever went through, my mind's my biggest fear

I never know what direction it's gonna take me in

Today I was fine

Tomorrow could be breaking down

And all this trauma that I got might not seem like much to you

But to me, it's a lot

Probably why I smoke weed, all this pot

All the Zoloft, therapy, meditation, hip-hop

All I wanted was respect

Cause in school, I would never get a lot

I still think about those kids that always clowned me

Picked on me, and pinned me to submission when I was thin

Cause I didn't want to eat always fuckin' upset

And it wasn't too long ago

Punchin' holes through the walls

Drinkin' till I fall

Fuck my family

Fuck my friends

I don't care

I'll end it all

What about my baby nephews

Are they gonna grow to remember Matthew

By the time your brain settles

Look at how much time has passed you

Look into a mirror

You don't recognize who's staring

Back into your soul

It's kinda scary

And all the changes that you don't see

To yourself, you're transparent

I don't even remember when my goatee filled in

Just happened

All these grays that I've been

Cutting out my hair's

Now I challenge

Six years I've been at this talent

And they still tell me I stink

Relationships I doubt it

Ever will happen

Find the one for me

Who can put up with all of me

And I'm still looking for bread to buy a snack

From the Dollar Tree

Cause all the money I make

I funnel back into the vision

But this tunnel is getting longer by the second

It's almost like I see the end

And it's starting to look majestic

And I get pulled back by the necklace

But it's like you almost expect it

Give me a sign that I got it

Cause now my pockets are skinny as anorexics

I'm scraping up pennies

To eat on my lunch break

While working OT on a Sunday

I already skipped breakfast

It's like you though you knew where you're going

But turns out you were headless

From hospital psych offices

No scientist, my hypothesis

I'm achieving everything they said

I couldn't and left me to rot

I joke I am not

I'll tag you punks when I'm posted up

One day

No matter how long it happens

I won't give up till I am collapsing

Life a Nate Dogg and Eminem soundtrack

College drop out

At least I wasn't held back

Went from picked on and shy to

The same energy as a Hellcat

Used to rap in high school

People told me"Matt

You shouldn't sell that"

Now I'm popping

Like a gel cap

Still broke though

Oh well that's all gonna change

Soon enough my wishing well at

Full capacity

I been praying like apostles

Lot of reasons to not

I'll never stop though

Put way too much into this game

To walk away

Even if I'm on ice like Gretzky

Wayne

I just can't

Walk away

I don't know

What it is

I'm just in love

With this game

I'm taking over this shit yo

You probably didn't even see it coming

A lot of trial and error

But great things take time