Why Can't I Lyrics

This repetition burns now

Stressed to see the turn out

Too much flames in the head

At some point its gone burn out

Still think about her now

I drink to let the nerves drown

Look at all her curves round

Don't care if I get curved now

Can't help if I still like her

This is why I'm a writer

To ease the pain and keep away

Them shots far like a sniper

This writing is my therapy

If not my thoughts would bury me

My god this a necessity

If not then let me rest In peace

Feel like a loser when i'm on the market

Got all of these bruises yet I'm the target

Got nothing to lose so do not start shit

Still running from you surrounded by darkness

Hyper fixate break down happens every time

I can't think straight or play round lacking sense of time

Just wish this was more easy

This mindset always loves to keep me

Trapped in the moment that's why I always feel hopeless 
Been five years on the wrong thing need to change my motives

Surprised I ain't crazy at this rate with how I focus

On love and only love swarms me more than locusts

Please make this disappear like I said hocus pocus

None of this getting clear I guess its just a bonus

To everything that went wrong

This why I always vent long

Smile on the outside but the sadness has a scent strong

But I do not want pity I'm trying to leave this place

If you don't fuck with me then say it in the bleakest way

Wouldn't be mad if I was slapped in the face

I think that's the only thing that would keep me straight

Why do I let it come here

This is what has sprung fear

Afraid I'll be like this forever man its unclear

This flow is like my state of being its an endless loop

They know I don't break demeanor I'll send it through

The good days and the tragedies this life is a balance too

I focus on the negatives that's what I feel invalid

Too often dude stop it take control and get a grip

You spew nonsense new polish will let you settle in

I need to escape from here

My whole body is gaped in fear

I need to escape from here

My whole body is gaped in fear

Please make it clear

Why do I take it here