October ft. Swaine Lyrics

She said it's for my benefit

Said she's leaving I'm a mess again

I'm too dependent on just living for her compliments

I can't stomach being numb so I'm caught in this

And I can't find a fix

She said it's over 'cause I always act emotionless

Said she need someone to talk to not a therapist

Girl I'm sorry I'm not helping I'm just numb again

And I know

I'm not the best at holding your hold

I'm not the best at sharing a kiss

I'm alone even though I got friends

But you know

I'll never let you fall again

I'll call back in a minute not ten

I'll still love you even at the end

I hope you're with me even at the end

After everything we been through I hope we're on the map

Scared to send a message to you waiting on replies, filled with dread

You're the one I see when I close my eyes and go to bed

Yeah, I'm dreaming 'bout you

I can't breathe without you

I pray to every power that you stay around, I got you

I pray we never break apart when shit turns sour

And I'm counting down the hours till I see you again

Bring you flowers, say I'm sorry now I'm peacing again

Until I fuck up and get you mad with beefing again

I apologize forever, I need you in my corner

What would I do without you

Don't wanna know it

And I know

I'm not the best at holding your hold

I'm not the best at sharing a kiss

I'm alone even though I got friends

But you know

I'll never let you fall again

I'll call back in a minute not ten

I'll still love you even at the end

I'm sorry I'm not sober

It's been raining through October

Anytime you need me closer

Say the word and I'll come over

'Cause I've been alone with my thoughts too long

And I'm tired of making these songs

Questioning how it wrong

And I know

I'm not the best at holding your hold

I'm not the best at sharing a kiss

I'm alone even though I got friends

But you know

I'll never let you fall again

I'll call back in a minute not ten

I'll still love you even at the end

On this October, I'll surrender

You can have it all my damsel

Just give me one call I'll answer

Girl I wanna be your heart's defender