Reaching Lyrics

I'm tired of reaching for useless things when I should be reaching for truth

I'm tired of reaching to hold on to something real just to end up holding on to you

Cause I looked at this as a noble pursuit, now often I wonder if that's even true

Cause I would've gave anything, including myself if it meant I could be there for you

It's crazy to think I planned my whole life around you and putting a ring on that finger

Just for you to leave me with painful memories, it's not easier when I sing them

I can't forget them or the feeling of feeling like I was somebody different

Looking back now on your track record, I was just another statistic

After all

You cannot truly love someone who's just a source of validation

After all

You cannot build something on a foundation of infatuation

My trepidation was always that you would leave me without a second glance

Then you left me feeling like I messed it up

My heart was crying out for a second chance

But this ain't a movie scene romance where the guy always gets another chance

Cause God intervened, yeah, he took it from me I'm thankful that He had it in His hands

Now days go on and the feelings I felt are becoming more of a blur

Cause when I reach out for you, I'm holding on to that person that you never were

But I'm fighting the urge to believe that you could be somebody who's right for me

In a later time, later on in life, when we've grown and can be someone rightfully

But I gotta let this go

If and only then can I truly grow

And whether or not this is part of God's plot, only He in time will let us know

But I'm still thankful

Cause looking back now, I know I was far from perfect

I just want you to know that each and every moment we spent, that it was all worth it

I still think about you and I pray for you

I truly wish you the best

Cause you were there for me through some dark times so I thank God

And we love you to death

Reaching

You shall ask, what good are dead leaves

And I will tell you, they nourish the soil of earth

You shall ask, what reason is there for winter

And I will tell you, to bring about new leaves