Going to Heaven ft. verism rip Lyrics

I think I'm bound to finally make it

Think I'm bound for good appearances

And bound for smiling faces

Yeah my name is relative

To the person that I'm speaking to

On days of brokenness

I think my name is worth keeping to

Myself

I'll move along and quick with stealth

I think I'm better off just hiding

Think I'm better being held

By my god

And then I'll make my way to heaven

And you won't guess for a second

That I hide decades of depression

In my room

The hearing's gone, the music soon

Eventually, I'll play the music and I will struggle to hear the tune

It's hiding dozens of years of pain

And then I haven't smiled the same

I think I'd rather go up to heaven

I'd rather go up to heaven

I'd rather go up to heaven

So tell me if I'm going to heaven

No if I'm going to heaven

No if I'm going to heaven

I think I'd rather go up to heaven

I'd rather go up to heaven

I'd rather go up to heaven

So tell me if I'm going to heaven

No if I'm going to heaven

No if I'm going to heaven

I'm packing my bags up and going my way

I'm sitting here still and I'm counting the days

The notion that I was a mess in my life

Is something that I would just pass as a phase

Now I'm lost in my head like I'm stuck in a maze

Diamond glistened sparkles all up on my shit

I'm sick of trying to distinguish exactly what's all part of this

I know my dogs like V and E are telling me it's hard as shit

But what's the point of hard as shit if there is never any heart in it

And I know you hear the irony

Of saying there is heart in it

But the heart and shit the hardest shit is what I call the start of it

In February

Died and shit

They looked inside

I died a bit

My momma cried

I died a bit

And deep inside

I lied a bit

I lied about the pain so that

She'd stop crying my pain is

Actually

So fucking bad

I wasn't sure if I was making it

And then I went and fucking made it

(I fucking made it man, I made it)

And then I went and fucking made it