Special Lyrics

New Year, new tears I could never put away

Seems like I'm depressed everyday

New B, new tricks she be using my brain

Just to use my mind as escape

So imma stay alone for a while

Hide behind a broken smile

You could try and tell imma be fine

I don't wanna hear more lies

I can't find myself tonight

(I'm just stuck inside my mind)

Spending everyday just hoping I survive

So tell me that you love me even if it ain't real

And show me I can trust that you can feel what I feel cause

I've been so dissatisfied with the outcome of my life

You wanna end your life

You don't know what is right

Kinda feelin like the world is upside down

Wanna feel okay

But we're just in the rain

Drowning in the fucking pain we can't get out

So we hide inside

Mask over our eyes

To the point we just pretend we're doing fine

But that's another lie, we don't wanna die

We're just screaming inside

I can't find myself tonight

(I'm just stuck inside my mind)

Spending everyday just hoping I survive

So tell me that you love me even if it ain't real

And show me I can trust that you can feel what I feel cause

I've been so dissatisfied with the outcome of my life

Cause the problems in my mind

They escape me

I don't wanna feel like I'm gonna hate me

But somedays I just let things break me down

It's like we all drink/smoke for a little escape but nigga I know that

That'll never take me away..cause I feel

(Feel insane)

I can't find myself tonight

(I'm just stuck inside my mind)

Spending everyday just hoping I survive

So tell me that you love me even if it ain't real

And show me I can trust that you can feel what I feel cause

I've been so dissatisfied with the outcome of my life