Painful Memory Lyrics

I'm just trying to find myself

But I can't let go

Don't know why

Isn't this what you wanted

Don't know why

I don't know what I'm feeling

I think everyday, what if it wasn't this way

Would I have wanted to stay

And I know it's pointless

'Cause there's just no other way

And this is just how it has to be

It was a good run

Now just a painful memory

And now it's only me

But I don't know where I should be

I want to be alone

But I'm feeling lonely

And I want to do better

But I'm giving into

The same shit

I blamed it all on you, but

Really, I'm just a troubled person

I have all of these problems

I didn't mean anything, so

Please don't go and take all of the blame

I've hurt you so much too, I

Just want to focus on myself

Myself, myself, myself, myself

But I still go back and forth

It's really hard and I miss you

But I know

Just gonna be the same thing

Because I

Want to worry about myself

I think everyday, I really hope you're okay

'Cause lately for me it's been so gray

But we have to push through

'Cause there's just no other way

And this is just how it has to be

It was a good run

Not just a painful memory

And now it's only me

And this is just how it should be for now