rot girl winter pts 1 and 2 Lyrics

I'm skipping dinner

When this shit gonna kick in?

Yeah the lines get bigger

Least I feel myself getting thinner

You my sinner

Make me iller

You my killer

Pull the trigger

Got me listening to SZA

It's a rot girl winter

Shit I run out again

I just wanna forget

Please let me rest

Then let me get dressed for a second

Then dive back in my regrets

Am I doing too much?

That's why I do better numb

Are you dumb are you dumb

Yeah I am duh

Now shut the fuck up

Wrap me up wrap me up

Cuz you know I don't like being naked

Don't like my body don't like my scars

I don't like my past is that basic?

Medicate it when the shame hit

Mutilating it when I shave it

Hate myself enough to let you penetrate

But its kinda nice when I'm wasted

I'm skipping dinner

When this shit gonna kick in?

Yeah the lines get bigger

Least I feel myself getting thinner

You my sinner

Make me iller

You my killer

Pull the trigger

Got me listening to SZA

It's a rot girl winter

I didn't come here for your input

I just come here cuz the dick good

On the run from my past mistakes

And then I'll make some more so I got

New shit to think about

New shit to drink about

Truth is I'm running out of excuses not to fucking (gasp) myself

Music? I guess thats one

Family? Maybe not

Friends who'd be better without me to stress about

RIP Chynna the blueprint

Hope MPTG don't do it

I wish I was stupid cuz thinking is useless

When all of my thinking intrusive

Mugs been piling up

And my sheets ain't been clean in months

Should I eat should I sleep nah I need to pay rent

Nah forget it just set me a bump

Serotonin been slipping

Psychosis is winning

How can I get sober when winter this cold

Nah I don't wanna die but the spiralling different

Serotonin been missing

Get the rope and the scissors

All my broken bitches put ur wrists up it's a rot girl winter

If I died tonight then no one would know the real me

(And I'm too narcissistic for that)

I'd rather die than let anyone know the real me

(Cuz I'm too narcissistic for that)

Who to be

Where to sleep

Concrete floors and empty sleeves

C'est la vie

Shame and grief

Come this far I'm in too deep

Just make me numb

Swear I'm having fun

Make me stupid dumb and drunk

And pray this time I don't wake up

Very superficial so I get over things quicker

Convinced that you the issue just to give myself excuses

Maybe i'd have turned out better if u were still with us

I don't know i don't know i guess I've just been thinking