STAGNATE (creature comforts) Lyrics

When I sat down to write this I got nervous

What am I doing? is this shit worth it?

If I got lost outside my mind would I let back in

If all my thoughts were misplaced would I be able to steer the ship again

Cuz now I'm doubting myself, I can't lose you again (with voices)

All my notes and memories, scattered into the wind

Blank pages and empty notebooks of flashing colors

To think there's ever been a life underneath all the rubble

But I ain't live through this for nothing, there's gotta be something

I check the closet door for scratch marks or signs of nudging

But beyond the gates I see nothing

This pit is ventureless, and the fall is endless

I keep checking my phone for messages or helping hands

Swiping up to feel no pulse, hoping you would understand

But i stare back into nothingness, and its eyes make a face

I cried and ran back to comfort cuz something felt out of place

How much do I gotta go through before these feelings are enough?

How much do I gotta stagnate to show you I'm in a slump?

How can I say I'm hurting, without repeating myself

What the fuck do I need? Don't even know what I want

Dont fucking ask me bout my problems, no don't ask me bout my faults

Id be better off saying I needed nothing at all

I'm sick of being judged by myself, nothings ever enough

Now I cant be close to ledges I don't trust myself to not jump

I am not an artist, I don't got the motivation

I am not a prodigy, my mind is always vacant

All my pains are a figment of my imagination

I lack initiative ill never really try and change it

I wont live up to the standards set by my own brothers

I wont be heard screaming under the rubble

But ima drag my limp body around like its worth something

'til I die by these fucking hands, with nothing but my creature comforts