drowning Lyrics

Drown my thoughts

Drown my thoughts down

If she could hear me now, would there be chaos in the way I sounded

Too many miles, got no soles left

Punctured through my heart, same way bullets flew through my head

And I miss your face, what the fuck

I know I talk a lot about it, but shit sucks

We had a relationship that never grew enough

We were just starting to feel something tether

And then you pulled her from my hand like you were teasing me

Faint dreams of a good life, candid things

Looking back on it, I was an angry teen

Partially because she didn't believe in me

I know we're not supposed to talk down on the dead

But there's so much shit I've left unsaid

And I spent the last year trying to forgive

Accept the things that never could have been

A fortress I made in my mind coping

And I'm merely just a drop in the ocean

But I fantasize about a better life

If this is fight or die, then who the fuck am I

A go-getter for the pain and the kryptonite

Hopeful garden, but I fail to bear appetite

Ergo, there's a source for my suicide

I won't live a lie, see you on the other side

Everybody sees an imbalance

Everybody knows I've been drowning

Shipwrecked too far off the shore

And you see my hand and don't grab it

And they wonder why I don't trust nobody

'Cause I grew up in a world without anybody

The best thing is, they hated me for my hobbies

So I took 'em, and I went full time bitch

It's a stretch to say that I'll be famous

But I don't give a fuck what my name is

If I didn't mean a damn thing I ever said

I would've just pulled the trigger back then

When I sat there, gun loaded to my head

Praying to a God that never listens

All he do is take take take from me

Took everybody, and I try not to blaspheme

But damnit, I thought he was supposed to make me feel

less lonely

Only thing I feel is abandoned

Drown my thoughts

Drown my thoughts down

If she could hear me now, would there be chaos in the way I sounded

Too many miles, got no soles left

Punctured through my heart, same way bullets flew through my head