Not The Same ft. LOQI the Visionary Lyrics

You can't tell me how I feel I've been in too much pain for so long, so long, so long

So I'ma hit this joint until there ain't no more Hope this shit can fill the void because I can't no more

Been in so much pain for so long, so long, so long

This shit won't ever be the same

Where do I start? It feels like my life has been falling apart

I'm calling to God cause I need his help I can't deal with this shit when I'm all by myself

And God I know this isn't good for my health If I keep holding back then I know I'ma fail

It's starting to feel like we living in hell

This negative energy starting to phase me Trying to do better within and take it one day at a time

But my mindset is hazy Dealing with loss, trust and lust

It's like I've been losing focus on it daily The devil been working hard to distract me

I keep giving in every time he will bait me In the span of 365 days I've went through the worst

Papa was hurting and left us concerned Just waking up when I found out the news

In shock cause I didn't believe it at first Saw him laid out on the stretcher, I burst into tears

Feeling guilty I wasn't around him enough Through these past couple years

Seeing my mother cry had me stressed There's only so much I could do

She didn't have a father figure So my grandpa was all she was looking up to

Grandma was devastated Can't imagine what went through her head

She checked in the hospital months later The family called me and said she was dead

Now shit ain't the same

You can't tell me how I feel I've been in too much pain for so long, so long, so long

So I'ma hit this joint until it ain't no more Hope this shit can fill the void because I can't no more

Been in so much pain for so long, so long, so long

This shit won't ever be the same

It might take me a while to heal After my grandma passed away

I'm realizing that I don't have any time to kill I'm feeling guilt about it cause she always would ask

Why I didn't see her as much Should've been keeping in touch with the fam

Instead I was partying and getting drunk

Always check up on your people You never know when they'll be gone

I give my life away to tell my grandma I love her There's nothing else that I would want

Can't take shit for granted I know that God can take whatever he handed

Wasn't aware of the blessings I had I got a little older now I understand it

Still in denial that this shit really happened

For the sake of my family I gotta achieve So many people depending on me

Determined to work through the pain and the grief

Although the weight on my shoulders gets harder to heave

I'm pushing it through We survived hurt and hard times

Feeling like there wasn't much we could do Better days yet to come

The stars will align Coming out stronger we destined to shine

Won't let defeat be a thought in my mind I'm putting the negative shit to the side

Shit won't ever be the same But I gotta keep faith in my heart

When everything's falling apart I know it gets rough

Just take a step back Reset and restart

You can't tell me how I feel I've been in too much pain for so long

So long, so long

So I'ma hit this joint until there ain't no more

Hope this shit can fill the void because I can't no more

Been in so much pain for so long

So long, so long

This shit won't ever be the same