WHEN I DIE Lyrics

What's your definition of success

I don't trust the thoughts that come inside my head

I don't trust this thing that beats inside my chest

Who I am and who I wanna be cannot connect why?

Don't think I deserve it you get no respect

I just made a couple mil' still not impressed

Let you down goes triple platinum yeah okay okay I guess

Smile for a moment then these questions start to fill my head not again

Nothing to me's ever good enough

I could be working for 24 hours a day and think I never did enough

My life is a movie but there ain't no telling what you're gonna see in my cinema

I wanna be great but I get in the way of myself

And I think about everything that I could never be why do I do it though?

Hey yeah why you always looking aggravated?

Not a choice you know I had to make it

When they talk about the greatest they can probably never put us in a conversation

Like something then I gotta take it

Write something then I might erase it

I love it then I really hate it what's the problem

Nathan I don't know

I push away the people that I love the most why?

I don't want no one to know I'm vulnerable why?

That makes me feel weak and so uncomfortable why?

Stop askin' me questions I just wanna feel alive

Until I die—this isn't Nate's flow

Just let me rhyme I'm in disguise

I'm a busy person got no time for lies one of a kind

They don't see it I pull out they eyes I'm on the rise!

Woo!

They ask me am I okay they ask me if I'm happy

Are they asking me that because of the shit that's been thrown at me?

Or am I just a little snappy and they genuinely care?

Doody most of my life it's just been me and you there

And I continuously stare at pictures of you

I never got to say I love you as much as I wanted to but I do

Yeah I say it now when you can't hear me

What the fuck good does that do me now?

But somehow I know you're near me in presence

Oh I went and dropped some presents off for Easter

To them two little beautiful boys of yours to try to ease their

Minds a little and dog you'll never believe this

But Sharonda actually talks to me now

And everyone else is just tryin' to pick up the pieces

Man how could you touch so many fuckin' lives and just leave us?

They say grievance has a way of affectin' everyone different

If it's true how the fuck am I supposed to get over you?

I push away the people that I love the most why?

I don't want no one to know I'm vulnerable why?

That makes me feel weak and so uncomfortable why?

Stop askin' me questions I just wanna feel alive

Until I die—this isn't Nate's flow

Just let me rhyme I'm in disguise

I'm a busy person got no time for lies one of a kind

They don't see it I pull out they eyes I'm on the rise!

(Woo)