thirty days Lyrics

It's been thirty days since I knew this was the end

I'm glad you've found peace but I'm left with depression

Cause I'm stuck here with myself still second guessing

Why I never thought to ask a few more questions

And I've laid awake for too many nights telling myself for one last time

That I just need to get my shit together

It's now or never

I never believed in myself the way you did

And I'd give anything to have that back again

I wish I could see the good everyone else sees

Just be grateful that I have those years as memories

It just never even crossed my mind that we were running out of time

And I would never get to say goodbye

I tried to stay numb for too many days

Drank every night for three weeks straight

Cause I just never thought you wouldn't be ok

I never cared about myself the way you did

And I'd give anything to have that back again

I've never been one to do well in times when I can't blame myself

I just keep thinking of new things I won't do with anybody else

I've never had anything to close to what we did

And I'd give anything to do this all again