i sat down with somebody Lyrics

I sat down with somebody

Promised she wouldn't judge me

For the things people did

How I still feel their grip

All the questions that haunt me

And I guess it's all over

And I'm searching for closure

That I'm not gonna get so it is what it is when I lose my composure

I thought I would feel brave telling my story

But afterwards instead I just felt empty

I got older but I never grew up

Got stuck in a cycle I still can't break out of

Everyone says its all in my head and yeah I guess

But it's also in the mirror, my dreams, in my bed

In everywhere I've ever been ever since

And when I start to forget I just make myself pretend

Like these wounds are fresh and relevent and I still see the fingerprints

And my reflection was always someone's silhouette

I sat down with somebody

Promised she wouldn't judge me

For not thinking things through as much as I do

And I thought it was lovely

I thought I would feel strong enough to let go

But what I really am is in need of control

Always broke people cause I couldn't fix me

Made me hard to love to they walked away easy

Everyone says I should be over it but I'm just not ready

Everyone says it's all in my head and yeah I guess but it's also in everywhere I'll ever go

And everywhere I've ever been every since

I sat down with somebody

Promised she wouldn't judge me

For the things that I hid

How I'm not over it

I wish I'd been more trusting

I thought I would feel brave telling my story