us again Lyrics

I thought I couldn't be caught dead retracing our steps after we left

Only saw you again in nightmares

I made them daydreams hoping you'd come back to me

I've replayed every single way you fit perfectly into my shame

I still have a list of the what ifs and you have the only key to the evidence

I've always wondered what it would be like

To talk about us after all this time

I never thought I'd return to the crime scene

Thought I'd finally put this behind me

Missing you is so unlike me

I never thought I'd dig up the time capsule

Buried you with the years that you stole

To get myself out of this cycle

How do I tell myself we had an end

There's no room for a second chance

No way to pick up what we left

When driving home, 2am, kind of feels like us again

And I don't think I've quite learned to regret

Putting my future in your hands

Took me years to understand

You weren't the one that got away just the one that got away with leaving me alone

With no way to cope and you'll never know

That I still wonder what it would be like

To talk about you after all this time

I never thought I'd return to the crime scene

Thought I'd finally put this behind me

Missing you is so unlike me

I never thought I'd dig up the time capsule

Buried you with the years that you stole

To get myself out of this cycle

How do I tell myself we had an end

There's no room for a second chance

No way to pick up what we left

When driving home, 2am, kind of feels like us again

Cause we were always outrunning something

I hid the keys, you still took them from me

I never pictured myself as the passenger's seat of the getaway car

And I always tried to make the right choices

In the end I couldn't outrun the voices

That told me too late who you really are

I never thought I'd return to the crime scene

Thought I'd finally put this behind me

Missing you is so unlike me

I never thought I'd dig up the time capsule

Buried you with the years that you stole

To get myself out of this cycle

When I'm driving home at 2 am with all regrets, no second chance

To tell me who you were back then

And I still still hear voices in my head telling me you never left

And one day we'll be us again

Driving home, 2am, kind of feels like us again