The Reason I Jumped Lyrics

I had to take it all in

Before I let myself begin

I had to really feel the pain before I could really feel a win

I tried to let it all go almost blown away in the wind

I try to keep my mouth closed but always blow up near the end

What do I got my mouth for If I can speak about what's within

I start to feel claustrophobic all my walls closing in

Im starting to lose focus man I gotta get a grip

Im starting to fall in love but trying not to slip

Cause if I do I might lose it

I been scared to go thru it

I'm scared to go thru it again

Been lost in a bottle of sin

Was pouring up henny but now i'm sipping gin

Carry the weight of many too many things I done did

Lost daydreaming heavy bout the life i'm working to get

But I still gotta pay rent and save for bills coming next

The life before success not many talk about

Not saying life ain't great man don't ever be in doubt

Survive the hard times it'll be brighter in the end

Weather the cold nights gone be stronger by the end

Doing everything I can cause I won't get no second chance

Ain't nobody fina save me man I knew it from the jump

And it's the same reason I jumped

Im tryna prove myself

And I ain't gone be letting up

I'm tryna prove to myself

I'm better than the kid I was before

Young nigga running ramped

Deep inside was heavy snow

As I get older start to panic anxiety killing slow

Do all that I can manage how much longer will I go

At night I toss and turn I think I should be doing more

Think I should be doing more

So I grind all day and stay up planning all night

I know I been away but some day you gone see

Been thru many things It's ok it made a better me

Was stuck up in the rain prayed to God I won't shake

Not many feel my pain but writing help me feel ok

Takes away my grief so I can feel some other things

So I can feel some other things

I been stuck up in the rain

Im tryna feel some other things

Been tryna feel some other things yea