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I was asking for a savior

Look back at the ones asking for a change or

Loving a cracked version of me for a frame

Pouring last chances before they finally couldn't afford it

Ashamed for the ways I acted out

Ways I lashed out

Ways I stacked doubts

Days I attacked now

These feelings keep resealing while I'm

Reaching ceilings pleading deeply I'll climb

Peaks seeming feasible leaching crying why?

Theses sink in me

Tried wiring to a porn addiction for seven years at least

To a torn affliction for eleven years at ease when

Searching forced affection for unleveled fears

That decrease building any sense of peace

Healing requires bleeding

Rewiring mentally

Desiring amity

Slamming these

Gnashing teeth

Laugh at me

Stacking fees

That cost me sanity

Sinning sucked sick soullessness to my mind's home

Pinning up this hopelessness yo

Finishing the twisted hold its had on me

Wishing for visions

Fasting, reading scriptures

Gasping feeling pressure

Vanish see ya never

That lusting severed love

Sad wanting clearer looks at my future

Latch my clueless habits

I'm proving that tied loose ends can actually set you free

That contractually lessening fees happens when you let in peace

Because a lack of it costs

These thoughts act softly

But you gotta not nod off cause spawns of satan are waiting for the day you're wading

Don't mistake not straining for God's placement

Enemy stops chasing when you're complacent

Now you gotta pray to be raised from that wasted space

Power came for my fate hiding in lusting sheets

Devour faith

Was a chase for the sinful beast

Ripped his feet but it's bloody

My God this is a mess

Mess mess mess mess

Yeah yeah

Try not to be such a wreck

But I'm just a mess mess mess mess mess

Try to be perfect

But I'm nothing but just a mess mess mess mess mess mess

Yeah, just a mess

Been nothing but a mess why can't I get this stress off my chest?

Donned the vest of feeling less

I'm a sinner God's given endless chances to

Thought I knew the way out from the bottom

But now I'm seeing that I've dug this hole myself

Even when I call Him closer

It's me that's gotta reach higher hope is fading

Soul is draining

So straining to hold things in

I'm nose-diving

Lies choking

Pride toting

But I gotta find a way to let that go

That's a weight that I was never meant to hold

That's a pain that I was never meant to mold into

That's a thinking process that'll steal your goals

I was getting narcissistic

Hardly listened

Partly wishing

For a quick death

I'm in debt to the messes I've created

These wages really are death

People couldn't stay

But I'd never blame cause I couldn't change

Became so mentally vacant

Physically shaken

Sinning's taking

Give in I'm taken

Driven but braking

Hid in some mistakes

Pinning a stake to this breaking heart

Need it displayed so I can reframe the way I think

You can hate me but I'm grateful for this

It's made me better

Learned to never take a day for granted and that hurting changes to purpose when you force the brain to reshape

Snap them neurons back in place that were once broken from some traumas

Cut the losses I've settled the decisions in mind

This is all up to His divine power now

Only He could clean me up and put me back together

Life changed when I said that I'm no longer a mess 


Hate how it took three suicide attempts

Two clueless sinners and one bad night to finally get here

But the vision is clear

The promise is near

The lost kid is revealed

I just had to be a mess to see what it means to be clean

Yeah since March 11th I've been repenting

Can't You see?

Since March 11th I've been repenting

Can't You see?