Letter From E Lyrics

My pops taught me neglect

My moms tried to fill my voids

She ain't have nuttin left

My sister feelin like she wasn't loved the same , She feelin lack of respect

I'm use to being tired , use to stay awake, So my moms got her rest

I ain't tryna put my pops ina negative light , Some act like it never happened

Even when they witnessed the fights

911 , neighbors prolly thinkin not another night

It wasn't once or twice

This was everyday life

Holidays use to calm the storm

It's like I was born wit the stitch already torn

Anything besides pain felt foreign

Imagine screams night to morn

Always moved on , never truly mourn

I'm just tryna fill in the blanks

But when you try hard to forget

Those memories fade

Change my ways , suttin told me i been chasin pain

Lost my sense of happiness , still I pray to god , hope I wake

Help me before they take it all away

Haven't had clarity for years , I got both parents

Still those buckets filled wit tears

That family photo ain't nowhere

Those photo albums you see a mother , a father who would reappear

Just to disappear

The love they learned they tried teaching me, Still wasn't clear

Abandonment issues , whenever they was leaving me, I use to care

it's hard to love yourself when there's no love to share

You see the sides that haven't healed

Barely see me outside , if the voices remind me I have no appeal

If you see me im always smilin'

Cause if I'm not you'll ask me how I feel

You could see what im hidin'

My content gets called depressin

Ya say I'm fucked up

Well I'm tryna answer all the questions

The smoke never left my lungs

They represent my sessions

The pain overshadowed my blessins

Some cant read between the lines

You wasn't meant for the message

Dead weight , this is what I'm left wit