Pain Lyrics

I wasn't sheltered from the pain , Shelter from the rain

Even when the years change , in Recovery

Yellin' out her name

She cried to me , I wasn't lookin The same

Some saw me break , dealt wit Everything , wit a straight face , Never saw someone better and Thought to change place

Just use to wish that I could feel the same

Some saw me at my worst , and Left me there

Half of me understood , half of me Never knew fair

I'm in the headlines , that isn't news here

I be thinkin to myself , you being used here

What if you wrong , can you leave it in the rear

I'm like my father , I reappear to disappear

Even he doesn't like it

Jail letters , wonder how hard he knew it was to write it

All I feel is anger I'm tryna fight it

Tried to make these loud thoughts quiet

I'm always chillin but they don't buy it

Least I ain't sellin you bullshit ,

There's a reason for my silence , why i look tired

So many kids grew up on violence

Eighteen and they hate it here

I was eighteen feelin the same way

Still tryna make it here

All eyes on me then the rooms clear

These thoughts been locked away

It's all reflection I'm out the cage

These the early chapters , from a young age

To see how the story ends turn the page

Each sheet has a blood stain , this real pain

These thoughts been locked away

It's all reflection I'm out the cage

These the early chapters , from a young age

To see how the story ends turn the page

Each sheet has a blood stain , this real pain

It's only me inside these four walls

They don't hear when the voices call

You see the scars from the battles I loss

The war isn't lost , mind over body

My heart was the cost , couldn't be bought

I aint who you recently saw

Everydays a chance to evolve

The lord seen me make mistakes

And I'm still makin' em'

Even on my worst day mentally

tried savin' em'

Some shit just never change wit em'

I be wantin' to go my own way

Fear of the sacrifices I'll have to make

What if you make it and it ain't wit em'

Might be the risk I'm willin to take

Love being loyal

Never wanted loyalty to seal my fate

You feel guilty when you gotta leave

I felt guilty when she saw me cheat

We don't even speak , sometimes you leave it how it is

They always claim I don't give a fuck

Maybe cause I say I do , it's for me tho

Talkin to myself , thinkin' I'ma weirdo

Always collide when they steer close

Chippin' away at the ice , im still cold

I'ma weirdo

Always collide when they steer close

Chippin' away at the ice , im still cold

These thoughts been locked away

It's all reflection I'm out the cage

These the early chapters , from a young age

To see how the story ends turn the page

Each sheet has a blood stain , this real pain

These thoughts been locked away

It's all reflection I'm out the cage

These the early chapters , from a young age

To see how the story ends turn the page

Each sheet has a blood stain , this real pain

I been rollin the dice , my whole life

Who would listen to an album about me

Who would listen bout my cold nights

There was no escape , sleep should suffice

Different women , different drugs

Keys to the car , crashed the first night

Tryna get far from home

I don't see the point in trust

Never had no one to rely on , grew on my own

My heart made of iron

I'm part wolf part lion

Obsessed wit telling the truth , I was use to lyin

A darkness took over , my whole life we been fightin

Only god seen me cryin'

She picked the phone up

Only god seen them sirens

It was god who saved me when I was dyin'

I ain't sad this reflection

This how you show grace to ya blessin

Call this my Shawshank redemption

Answers for everything , that's why I'm always in question

This ain't my perspective these the lost files , the taped confessions

This how you show grace to ya blessin

Call this my Shawshank redemption

Answers for everything , that's why I'm always in question

This ain't my perspective these the lost files , the taped confessions

These thoughts been locked away

It's all reflection I'm out the cage

These the early chapters , from a young age

To see how the story ends turn the page

Each sheet has a blood stain , this real pain

These thoughts been locked away

It's all reflection I'm out the cage

These the early chapters , from a young age

To see how the story ends turn the page

Each sheet has a blood stain , this real pain