Pity Party Lyrics

I was a broken down girl in a trauma filled world

Kids at school saw me as dirt

Teachers ignored the state I was in

Everything changed when I got sick

The rumors and lies turned to flowers and smiles

Hospital visits with red villain eyes

They all pretended to be my friend

Following a fucked up little trend

Don't wanna throw a pity party

But I wish that I could hug the old me

The body that's left from getting kidnapped's

A shell of the girl I'll never get back

I'm losing inspiration

Fighting for motivation

I always say don't live in the past

But just for a moment

Let me be sad

I can't even forgive and forget

How they held my hand on my death bed

All of them tried to calm their conscious

Thinking back now, it makes me nauseous

I wasn't an angel, just wanted to fit

Fit in with all of the other kids

They spread their gossip like wildfire

Didn't think I'd turn out a survivor

Don't wanna throw a pity party

But I wish that I could hug the old me

The body that's left from getting kidnapped's

A shell of the girl I'll never get back

I'm losing inspiration

Fighting for motivation

I always say don't live in the past

But just for a moment

Let me be sad

Hospital rooms of empty faces

Trapped in hollow places

Tried and failed to turn the chapter

Rip the pages

They all chose their egos

Over being real

So my screams wouldn't echo

In their heads like a ghost

My ghost

Don't wanna throw a pity party

But I wish that I could hug the old me

The body that's left from getting kidnapped's

A shell of the girl I'll never get back

I'm losing inspiration

Fighting for motivation

I always say don't live in the past

But just for a moment

Let me be sad