Looking For A Gift I Believe In Lyrics

I was looking for light

In all the wrong places

I had stood for the right

With all the wrong faces

I had ignored my plight

Of being stuck in these phases

I had lost my sight

In all of these chases

Call me deceived

Or call me a quitter

Tell me God is displeased

Tell me I am bitter

Tell me I have forsaken

All that is true

But I've actually awakened

I changed and I grew

I'm writing this verse

The words are flowing

I quit that game

But I'll keep on growing

I can't let the fear

Of doubt control me

Cuz after all

I am Grandmaster Z

That means I'll shine

For all to see

Even in the midst

Of the threat of eternity

I will follow

My heart and my feelings

I won't be held down

I will break through this ceiling

I will choose to be good

Not because of a God

I still have morals

Even though I am flawed

Do you hear these words

If not, let me shout

I will always think

And embrace my doubts

Even when it feels like

I'm by myself

I know who I am

I'll throw away this shelf

Walking this path

Can be lonely

But I have found the gift

The one and only

Being authentic

Is the gift I will give

It's the one I believe in

The one that will always live

I hope that you hear me

I hope I am loud

I've been up in the air

Now my feet have touched the ground

I will live my truth

Even when others don't want to hear

With each line I speak

My light starts to appear

I was stuck in the mud

But I decided not to stay

Cuz that was how

I could put my new gift on display

What I used to believe

And stand for is gone

Now I stand for something new

And it's a pretty good song

I never wanted to leave

But now I have decided

I never thought I would leave

But I couldn't fight it

I knew I had to leave

And I know I will survive it

I found the courage to leave

At the risk of being divided

I left what I regarded

And set out on seas uncharted

This fresh air I've started breathing

The fog, I'm finally leaving

This step is really special

I've gone to the next level

So go ahead and condemn

I no longer have to pretend

Everything I'll ever need

Everything that will help me

I'll keep close and defend

This new insight will never end