PARASITE Lyrics

Looking at myself and all I really see is you

Slicing skin, I'll replace my face until it's new

A life accepting fate is better spent than life of running

But I find freedom in blindly running till I'm nothing

Obsessive thoughts, the habits that I caused

I try to cherish time we had and not resent the time we lost

I left home, I miss my family when im gone

I wonder if without them, am I even strong?

I see your habits in my actions, the parallels im scared to tell

I don't believe in me no more, prepared to fail

I didn't do it for the playlists or the product placements

I did it until I became my favorite

Now I wonder if this living's even worth it

If I can't make a song that I consider perfect

I fear I live along the brim of saying way too much

And saying not enough, do I deserve your trust?

I dread the moment paths will cross, a ghost I can't escape

She's a fragment of my past that im scared to face

Saw her in my hometown bar, and I left without a trace

She's a phantom of the sins that I just can't erase

I know I need to make amends but I can't find the strength

Can I live life with the guilt or can I live it safe?

The warmth of sunlight became nothing more than just an echo

As im holding on to everything that I can't seem let go

No, oh

No, oh

No, oh

No, oh

I been watching parts of me I love the most just fade away

And I wish that I had the strength to break the blade

I wanted to be superhero, fantasize to save the day

But I'm tethered to the walls of this cage I made

My brittle bones are weathered and I can't hold it together

I'm falling apart so I can't promise you forever

Paradise or paradigm, scared of life or scared of time

Parasitic paradox, im scared to live and scared to die

I wish I had the talent that I fake, yea

I wish I had the balance that I hate, nah

Perhaps my privilege permitted me to drown in the illusion

I been so focused on fiction I forgot that you are human

I wish I could rescind the resentment that I just I hide in

The sweater that you gave me, that's the same one that I fly in

My brother wrote a message in the blood, and sent the letter

He said make sure to sever ties that don't hold you together (fuck)

Sometimes my faith misguided by my race

Sometimes my fate is blinded by this maze

Sometimes I cower in a tower, I'm afraid

Sometimes I hesitate to leave without a trace, yea

Sometimes I wonder if this is forever

If this bond can really stay together with no tether

Sometimes I wonder if our blood defines our love

If I can love my friend more than a cousin I don't trust

Sometimes I wonder if I made the right decisions

If I gave up, I wouldn't live life fighting prisons

Sometimes I'm petrified that they will clip my wings

If they will slice my tongue so I can never live to sing

Sometimes I question insecurity

I wonder if you feel better while you are hurting me

Sometimes I bleed attempting to be perfect

Sometimes I breathe and question if it's worth it

No, oh (worth it)

Hold on, hold on, hold on, I can't let go

No, oh

Hold on, hold on, hold on, I can't let go (go)

No, oh

Hold on, hold on, hold on, I can't let go (let go, parasite)

No, oh

Hold on, hold on, hold on, I can't let go (go)

No, oh

Hold on, hold on, hold on, I can't let go (go)

No, oh

Hold on, hold on, hold on, I can't let go (go)

No, oh

Hold on, hold on, hold on, I can't let go (let it go, parasite)

No, oh

Hold on, hold on, hold on, I can't let go

No, oh

No, oh

No, oh

No, oh