Hell & Back Lyrics

I started over, I'm three months sober

It's hard to admit, I've felt like shit for the past year

I'm going fast here, and I'm not sure where to start

Picking up drinking, I started thinking

That it wasn't the best for me to test my limits

Came close to the finish line

Of all I've ever done

And I think it's time (to recommit)

To start over again

I went through hell just to come back and visit

This healing isn't linear

I've heard it all before

It's hitting hard right now

I'm splitting open like a gourd

In the garden, who's rotten on the inside

Will I go back to the soil

To the soil

I'm sitting here waiting for someone to call me

No longer alone in this

You bring me back to when I first started

Ain't that some shit

I see myself seated up on the green grass

The wind gone through the trees

I'm broken and worn through

I wonder if you feel the same as me

I think it's time (to recommit)

To start over again

I went through hell just to come back and visit

This healing isn't linear

I've heard it all before

It's hitting hard right now

I'm splitting open like a gourd

In the garden, who's rotten on the inside

Will I go back to the soil

To the soil

There is a patience I can't describe her

But she's always there for me

Relaxed on the chaise lounge

I try to call out and feel her seamlessly

Asking for help is easier said than done

So will you help me

Don't know what I'm doing

I'm lost and I'm boiling over

I'll make some tea

I'll read a book

I'll lay at your feet

Whatever you say it takes

I'm honest and willing

I'll cut me open if you sew back the strings

This healing isn't linear

I've heard it all before

It's hitting hard right now

I'm splitting open like a gourd

In the garden who's rotten on the inside

Will I go back to the soil

To the soil

I think it's time (to recommit)

To start over again

I went through hell just to come back and visit

I think it's time to start over again

I went through hell just to come back and visit

Just to come back and visit