Forgive Me Lyrics

Wake up look at the pills

Like damn, I might take them

Don't know where my life is going

But I'm just anxious

I don't wanna die young

But that's what fate is seemin' like

Balancing the things you thought

You had balanced is stressful

When you can't budget your money

I swear that shit is stressful

Trying my best to see through it

That shit is stressful

Wake up look at the pills

Like damn, I might take them

Don't know where my life is going

But I'm just anxious

I don't wanna die young

But that's what fate is seemin' like

Where do you go when you die?

I'm afraid to see the light

Will I see God? Or will I see Satan?

Or will I see neither and be mistaken?

I put all this ice on my chains

'Cause I know I'm gonna be the greatest

I struggle with my mental health

Starting to see a therapist

Couldn't tell if she wanted to help

Or if it was 'cause I was payin' her

Can't see people's true intentions

I swear I've been played with, yeah

Drinking and doing drugs

Helps me get through the nights

I usually don't tell people when I do

So they don't try and save my life

Just in case I go overboard

And send myself into the sky

What if this world was fake

And we all are living in a lie?

The people in my city fake

Don't believe what they say, it's a lie

I hurt my Mom, mentally, and I know that

From all my lies

When I opened up about the truth

Sad to say I made her cry

My Dad texted me and said,

"You don't smile much anymore"

So deep inside, I knew, he knew

That I was struggling

I didn't wanna tell him, God

I can't see him like that I can't

I can't see him like that I can't

He tried his best, I failed him

Wish I could be a better son

If it were up to him, he would say

He should be gone

Don't think he realizes it would

Be so painful the pain

Of me slicing into my wrists

Wouldn't even compare to it

Working on healing is hard

When you can't afford to buy food

Losing my sanity, scared to think

That I've been being rude to you

I don't ever wanna see the day

That you say, "We are through"

I want you with me forever

Like we are stuck with glue

Took so many losses

Ready for the day I never lose

I know I prolly hurt you

I know I prolly broke you

But the fact you are here with me

I can't seem to understand

Why you would want to be with me

When you could choose any man

I'm a lost soul, lost cause

I'm a lost person, don't know me

I don't even know myself anymore

Don't wanna speak out about this

Never confessed to my driving

So recklessly when you aren't with me

Thought about turning the wheel

And driving into a tree

I'm sorry