Deep Shit Lyrics

Lemme talk some deep shit for real bro

I wrote this just now

Man, I got bills to pay and people to feed

No one knows how it feels to feel this weak

But I know we all experiencing different things

But I fuckin' hate when people ask if I'm okay

Today is just not my fuckin' day

Would rather stay asleep than be awake

Would rather be dead than stand up today

This life is just repetitive, it's just the same ol' problems

Some how I hide my pain so well

That no one even realizes

I would rather slice my throat

Than be in this financial ruin that I'm in

I can't even believe I've tried as long as I have

I'm not saying in any way this is the end

But I mean the last three years I haven't had a single friend

Haven't had a single friend

If I disappeared tomorrow

Would you even be surprised?

Kinda have a feelin' no one would even realize

I'm not important to anyone, all I've done is fail

I've let everyone in my life down

Including myself

I struggle to even reach my own goals

So how can I fuckin' work for someone?

I'm all on my own

Some of this shit I'm sayin' people don't even know

Because they think I'm better now that I'm grown

Stopped takin' my meds but people don't even know

I've hid my pain behind my eyes all along

It's hard to keep a relationship but man I try my best

I give all that I can give but sometimes it's ten percent

I mean, my emotions are drained and things I can't forget

Are stuck in the back of my mind, a constant remembrance

A life full of trauma and really no ups

But filled with a ton of downs, I can't even count

Got me thinking some good will come soon

But with my luck I fuckin' think I'm doomed

People prolly don't think of the obvious things

People prolly don't think it's because of my weight

Or because some of the things I've seen

And no matter how much I try and do everything seems to stay the same

Yeah, somethings just never change, oh

I miss my family all together, wish I could have it back

But I mean everything happens for a reason and that is that

Working all day just to have no money by night

I need an accountant or something because all i do is try

And try never really works I've realized

When you try it just makes you hurt worse

Yeah it just makes you hurt worse, hurt worse

Then go to bed and cry

They say real men don't cry

Guess I'm not a real man, I don't know