If Only Lyrics

Lonely

You know that I lost myself a while ago

I do and don't want you to hold me

So confused that maybe I should learn to let it go

Cuz it's leaving me

Lonely

You know that I lost myself a while ago

Admit to myself I'm controlling

So confused that maybe I should learn to let it go

If only

If only you knew why I laughed

To cover up the pain and mask

All the aching all the torture in my mind from past failed

Loves to me I think I knew would never last

Look

I would never admit it though

Dropping all my pride was too difficult

Know you feel the same

But I can't take another second

Livin broken reminiscing

Back on all of the same things

So I work on music til I can't breathe

Finish up a song

Question my integrity

Sittin by myself and analyzing who I wanna be

Then I re write it over and over

In the end because I know that I am

Lonely

You know that I lost myself a while ago

I do and don't want you to hold me

So confused that maybe I should learn to let it go

Cuz it's leaving me

Lonely

You know that I lost myself a while ago

Admit to myself I'm controlling

So confused that maybe I should learn to let it go

If only

I'm fine I'm fine is what I tell myself but I'm livin' a lie

Everybodies lonely sometimes

Alright

I'm fine I'm fine is what I tell myself but I'm livin' a lie

Everybodies lonely sometimes

Alright

I'm fine I'm fine is what I tell myself but I'm livin' a lie

Everybodies lonely sometimes

Alright

I'm fine I'm fine is what I tell myself but I'm livin' a lie

Everybodies lonely sometimes

Alright

Lately I've been acting kinda different

Suicidal thoughts

Wishing that I wasn't lost

Maybe I should learn to change it

Rearranging I'm not faking

Crying out for help like

Dear God

You know that I gotta get this off my chest

Lately been alone and I'm way too depressed

Someone has to get this

Quiet in my home

More deafening than standing at a show in the front row

Life

And vision go sideways

Slow-Mo

A sign I should be leaving

But I never bring myself to walk away and go

Really think I'm lonely

Maybe I should pick up my phone

Lonely

You know that I lost myself a while ago

I do and don't want you to hold me

So confused that maybe I should learn to let it go

Cuz it's leaving me

Lonely

You know that I lost myself a while ago

Admit to myself I'm controlling

So confused that maybe I should learn to let it go