Find Myself Lyrics

Burn, holon holon holon holon hey

I've been really tryna find myself I've been really tryna find myself

I've been really tryna find myself I can't see

Underwater swimming by myself I can't breathe

I've been fighting demons all my life You see me bleed

I fell in love with them drugs on sight I don't need them

get away from me I don't wanna talk

I was down on my knees back against the wall

You were staring at me smiling You seen me fall

I was on my shit on top of a mountain I had it all

I was hurt Ain't nobody call my phone

When I was suicidal I couldn't ball with my bro

I was screaming Michael Jordan I was in a very dark place

I was ghost riding I was down on my knees praying demonizing

I was downtown with my brother Malik aye We was tryna make it off a scam and a beat

You might turn into a rockstar if you balling with me I ain't tryna throw no shots but they was firing at me

They was tryna neglect us They did not respect us

I was in that storm throwing bombs from the neck up I always keep my chest up I'm ready for whoever

I was on nigga I was hungry I was on that corner

Bobbin and weeving like broner Show no love to no one nigga

I don't know you And she dying to hold me I'm living with a holster

I got a clock on my waist I hit a true

All of my life they was throwing shade but I made it through

And I got a down bitch on side me she know the rules

And I told her play it cool They gon' envy you

I been really tryna find myself I been really tryna find myself

I been really tryna find myself I been really tryna find myself

I done ran into Love that ain't work Then I start doing heavy drugs hello Mr perk

And I was dying I fell down on my knees I started crying

I was talking to my cup it wasn't lying oh lean And then a couple seconds I was leaning

Feeling like a dream How the fuck do I end this shit

It will never end that's what the devil said But I talked to my God and I put him on a sled

And I was running He was right behind me like my brother Like no other

They coming for me baby Grab the guns on the dresser

You better not hesitate to cock it back and pop em and bust em

Cause if you don't then we all die

I don't want this life no more No more, no more