Past tense trauma Lyrics

I got emotional damage I think it's tearing me apart

Loneliness consumes me suffocating my heart, And I reach out for help but nobody's insight

And I'm trapped in darkness, longing for light aye, echoes of sadness echoing within

Aye wounds from the past where do I begin?

Trying to mend but the scars run deep, In this ocean of sorrow I silently weep

I've been fighting these battles with demons unseen on me

Can't go back in time, I don't wanna leave If I don't calm down it's gone be a lot of destruction

My brain is unstable I can't seem to function

Hey, I'll keep fighting I won't let them win

Though the pain is relentless, I'll rise again

Can I be your favorite? or a helping hand

I don't want you to be misguided can you understand?

Aye in the depths of despair, I lead astray

Your tears fall like raindrops, washing away

The pieces of hope that once used to stay

I've been drowning for so long you told me to wait

I've been drowning for five years

How the fuck I'm posed to wake up, and make up for them years

I don't see your logic I don't understand you

You tell me all these things I believe but you fail to

Realize I'm the only one you got

Yeah, I might be wrong, but of course, I'm not

I call it ego we know

I let you fly like a eagle, you watch me like Peep holes

Echoes of sadness echoing within

I've been hurt from the past but I walk around with no fear

And that's why I'm still here I can't fold I won't change

They tryna bring me down, they throwing dirt on my name

Girl I gotta tell the truth if I don't you gon' take it far

I shoulda knew it, you done blew it, you done ran with my love

How the fuck I'm gon' trust? Tell me where do I run?

They laughing at me right now, but I got the gun

And that's my soul screaming, you woke up the demon

I don't wanna witness you dying or bleeding

Don't wanna see leaving, just tell me what's yo reason?

I got emotional damage, I think it's tearing me apart

Loneliness consumes me, suffocating my heart

And I reach out for help, but nobody's insight

And I'm trapped in darkness, longing for light

Longing for light

I'm longing, I'm longing

I'm longing for light

You don't know how long I've been longing for light

I been tryna get it off my mind

Past tense trauma