Out Of Spite Lyrics

Did I ever know fear before

The two hours when I thought you were gone

And I called on every ancient sacred thing

Nothing answered except the phantom

Apparition of my best friend's soul

To tell me that I shouldn't be scared of death

He'd welcome me with open arms

In our unspoken couple's vows

I woke up wanting to take back

Every thought of leaving I had ever had

And how is it that it becomes too real

When it's someone else who isn't me

And I'm afraid of our death dream again

And there was some visceral truth

In the morning when I knew I'd lost you

And I swore I'd never ask for anything again

And I willed you to hate me instead of being dead

And I would have lived with that if it meant you'd lived

If only out of spite

You died in my sleep last night

You died in my dreams last night