Lux Lisbon Lyrics

I don't know the answers

To the questions you're not asking

I can't tell the future

For a man who doesn't want it

I'm not saying I'm not angry

I'm not saying anything

I would have come if you called me

After all that you did

Does that mean that I'm selfish or does it mean that I'm weak

And I would have wanted to die, too

If it happened to me

Like it happened to you

And I lived through it all too

But I would have never made you hold me

In the hospital room

I don't pass through your mind

You don't lie awake at night

You don't notice my wrists when you're averting your eyes

You touch me and it hurts

But I don't complain, I'm happy for the contact anyway

I want to go back to the body where I was in control

I don't want to be well, I don't want to grow old

I want you to worry and tell me you're scared

I want to hurt you while I'm hurting myself

And I need your concern and the questions you ask

I need to be beautiful while I'm killing myself

If I don't have it then what do I have

But a stake through the heart and a torn wedding dress

I don't want to be well, I don't want to grow old

I don't want to be well, I don't want to grow old

And I wished that I had died on the night that you had