5am in Indianapolis Lyrics

I'm him

I've been saving this one for last

You gon' feel me on this, bitch

I promise you

If you ain't, fuck ya

Losing to addiction, and it's my fault

Cause I played the victim, for far too long

Heal my pain, help me change

I'm losing this game, I just needed time

To change my mind, I was so blind

But they sick of my attitude

Never thought I would be that dude

That was on the news

I thought these red and white speckles would numb the pain

I was losing my mental, I was going insane

Snorting on cocaine, banging in my vein

Hoping that shit would change everything

Well it certainly did in this life that I live

I threw it down the drain, said fuck everything

I promised I would change, I stayed the same

Ain't no more embarrassing my name

Imagine your mama being so mad at you

Your dad fucking hates you and wish he never had you

Everyone in your family is looking at you crazy

They was thinking that you're sober but your eyes still hazy

Your mind is fucked, you're all alone

You push everyone away, you're 33 grown

Knowing that I ain't trying to be on my own

I need someone to come and hold me in my zone

They tell me they'll never leave me and that they love me

But when it comes time, it's like they say fuck me

They up the leave while my soul, it bleeds

And I puff on this weed cause it's all I ever need

I'm broken, hopeless and women call me trouble

Locked in my bubble and this music is my hustle

Dudes think they muscle till they lose a scuffle

And now what the fuck is up with you

For 15 years I took the wrong route

Fuck that hater that took food out my mouth

Everything was going good till you sent my GM pictures of my past

Now I'm back on my ass

Had to double back and call my dad

Like fuck man, they done fired me again

Can you take me back for some dollars and some change

I promise man, shit ain't gone be the same

They tell me quit my fucking stressing

Count my blessings and look for the lessons

But they ain't ever been in the department of correction on Friday

Inspection looking for love and affection

I keep it a gigabyte, I'm begging them

Keep it a hundred, keep it a buck with me

If you ain't got nothing for me, stay the fuck from me

And I could give a rat's ass if you fuck with me

They left me on the block bleeding and geeking

I was speeding now, therapy is what I'm needing

When I was fiending, I was a god damn demon

Looking at your pockets like man I really need them

Nine months ago I done lost my soul

Turned me so cold and now I don't know

Who the fuck I am, am I a man

I hope God understands and shows me his plan

And I told you I was sorry mama

And I'll be back tomorrow mama

Give it my all and I promise I won't fall mama

I'ma stand tall, watch me evolve mama

Yeah, I've been hurting for so long

I don't know how much longer I can stay strong

I feed you stories in my songs

Listen closer, you'll see what's wrong