Thanks for Taking Me Back! (A Letter to God) Lyrics
- Genre:Spoken Word
- Year of Release:2023
Lyrics
You know, I don't know what I was thinking
But upon review of the play I was definitely
Tweaking
Fumbled the ball on Super Bowl weekend
Took you for granted like the atmosphere of the
Planet
But when we separated it all fell apart and I started to panic
Put the O in the Ozone, ignoring your warnings like global warning
Alone, there I was, left frantic
I was negative, hypercritical, focused on the wrong things
Think that's what they call pedantic
But then again, that's what pride brings
Well, until regret sings
Yeah, couldn't tell me nothing
Something like stubbornness had a baby with selfishness and named it arrogance
I think I was immature
Yeah, that is
I couldn't care less about your feelings
I was inconsiderate, insecure, inadequate, inconsistent, and probably a few more
I was careless
I was fearless
I mean, foolish, self-deceiving
Better yet, I was ruthless, self-achieving, self-congratulatory, and self-believing
Believing
I was blind
Thought I had 20-20 vision, but it wasn't nothing but the back of my eyelids I was seeing
From behind the whole time
Got it twisted quicker than you could blink
That wasn't even the first time
It's like they said everything I wanted wasn't everything I needed
I was incomplete, hard-headed, didn't learn my lesson, so I was re-enrolled to repeat
Help me, Jesus
Help me find a blessing through this here defeat
To be honest, I'm more than a little embarrassed
I wasn't the fairest
I was everything but grateful, not even the least bit gracious, and I was far from faithful
Actually, my behavior was tasteless
Surprised you didn't leave me on your wait list when it was completely within your power
Since I often ignored you like you didn't exist
Not to mention never went to office Hours
Lord knows what I missed
See, it felt better to feel right than for you to tell me what I was doing wrong
Didn't want to fight, but maybe I should have all along
Just not with you
Should have fought for you
Should have made sure that I adored you
Should have, would have, could have
I'm fairly certain that my excuses bored you
I treated you like a side piece and wondered why I couldn't find peace or keep it
It was fleeting
I was cheating
And for no good reason, in fact, like TLC, I was creeping
Now, how you forgave me for that is beyond me
I'd have treated it like treason or like a person with COVID who kept sneezing
Gross
I'm talking the 6th of January with pitchforks, no masks, and heavy breathing
Like Megatron with Omicron running from Optimus Prime through Cybertron
Hard to believe in, but nevertheless, once again, you're mine and I'm sorry it took all
That time
I was tripping
It's almost as if I didn't realize what was missing
Until you stopped visiting, but I get it
You had boundaries and I abused them
You gave bundles of advice
I didn't use them
You were patient
I kept hitting snooze
Again and again and again
It's funny
There's little worse than thinking you're winning when it's clear to everyone else that
You're giving a clinic on how to lose
It's clear now, though
I just sit back, shake my head and think, wow, what a clown, what a buffoon I was
Valued a vast vocabulary and yet still I cussed
I played myself and the self-pity card
What a bad hand I had
The opposite of a flush
Bluffing
Thought I had something
Instead, through some self-reflection, turned out to be nothing
The opposite of a spread, so I folded and let introspection win
Thought the game was over
Due to what I lacked in my unwillingness to receive correction
But then you took me back
But what was it
I forgot to ask
Why did you take me back
It couldn't have been that easy, was it
My therapist told me it's important to understand
How I made you feel so that I could learn
From it
Help me understand
It's not like you needed me
There's plenty of other fish out there in the sea
Pray tell, what in all the oceans and on earth could it be
I know it's not me or something I did
I'm definitely not worth your favor
Don't fall too off and out-gas myself and act like I was the one doing you a favor
What's that
Oh, you love me, huh
Yeah, I love you too
Well, I want to
I want to make that sentence true
I want to make it do what it do
I want you to know that there's no place like being right up under and next to you
Look, this here's what I'm going to do
This time around, I'm going to put you first
Listen and avoid interrupting or even worse, replacing you with something
But I ain't just going to listen
I'm going to do what you say, do what you like
Do what you want and do what I was called to
See, I was made for you and by you, FUBU
So today I'm feeling free
No, new
Planted
Yeah, I'm ready to grow in you
Not just in crisis
No, no, no
Not just while I'm going through
That's not what I want to do
Just send a purchase order over for the fertilizer before the balance comes due
Then the Holy Spirit can be my supplier
And whenever I come up short
This oh so holy advisor has the power to pick up the slack
And make me wiser, keep me on track and erase every invoice prior
Anyhow, I really just want to thank you for taking me back