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Had to be nice at balling & rhyming just to feel like I could fit in

Had to make everybody believe I was walking around with thick skin

Had to take all the jokes from who the folk who looked like me cause I was too light

The judgement from the others for anytime I ain't do right

The "Do me a favor, thank your mother for raising you right"s

The girls wouldn't talk to me thinking I only choose white

And I ain't get it

But I felt it and I ain't like it

Anytime I was slighted

By either side it

Was silence

Awkward

I remember moving to Vegas

Soon as neighbor's kids would see me

They'd run in the house to avoid the threat of violence

Yo I was fucking nine

And they was even younger

Apparently it's never too early to corrupt a mind

How was it possible for my skin to be such a crime

I'm betting they grew up telling people they're color blind

It's no shade

We're all products

My only hope was that their environment eventually opened up as much as mine

You know you just gotta get out to see what up sometimes

I need to take my own advice

But I'm an extroverted introvert

So if you happen to see me out

Yeah I'm good

But more than likely I'd rather be in the house

And that's not the result of the pandemic

It's just that I got

Everything the streets have for me with my spouse

Mary and Meth would be proud

This ain't something people thought they would ever see

And I can't even credit me

In full

It's been a joint effort see

Life is just sorta different when you're moving collectively

This is ecstasy

From inception to pregnancy

To the wedding week

Every reason to second guess whether we

Made the right move

We addressed it together

Even separately

We always had telepathy

What's better to dedicate your life to

Than that kind of love

Never even dreamt it

If you have but still ain't found it

I empathize with the resentment

But chill

Please

When it's drama

I'm in a different bag

Much as I love momma

She ain't even get a pass

I've learned when it's a matter of peace

The people disturbing it

Usually don't care about if they burn bridges

I know it's ludicrous

That's why I don't tolerate no foolishness

I gotta love me enough to not let people try to pretend they never knew the risk

And that goes for everybody

I'm an inclusionist

Can't set a boundary just to make an exception unless you're cool with it

Creating a mess that's ultimately left for you to fix

Just cause you can fit more

Baggage don't mean it's something you need to be equipped for

Personal space is sacred

Like I'm the type to give MORE room than 6

And if it's wrong I'm comfortable being guilty now

I just paid off one of the biggest problems I've ever had

And I'm still in doubt

I'm tryna see what this healing bout

Cause every time I'm chilling out

Minding my business

Somebody's tryna bring the villain out

And my patience ain't something NOBODY tryna get real about

I let it all slide

I could pull a billie out

Hand it over

And it'll still amount

To nothing

You would just come up with something else to send a bill about

Even when your cup is full

You find a way to spill it out

On me

And I just wanna be as unbothered as my wife

It don't even affect her life if it ain't something she would kill about

But you just got to take me as I am though

Gotta understand those

Triggers

You can't go

Screaming bout reform when

You gave me the handful

Of ammo

You can't pose

As the victim while really being the sickness

Then demonize the antidote

Sidebar

Democrats

Republicans

Cancel both

Matter of fact

Let's add to that cause too often

These politicians do nothing but talk and

Then when they do act

More people suffer because of it than they benefit from it

See Dems like to use traps

They be front and center for votes when the right is wrong

But anytime you look to the left for leadership

That's when they scoot back

I ain't got no issue with guns

Just who you shoot them at

You don't care about life once it's out of the womb

In fact

Lot of y'all aborted before

So we know you're cool with that

That's not an indictment

Just tryna make sure we're doing facts

Lawmakers pay for their mistresses to go through with that

Then it's Bible grabbing and gathering for a group attack

Newsflash

They don't want us talking about it

But everything that they're voting for is meant to return us to the past

The mirror's reflecting the threat to your children

The real danger

The prejudicial weapon you're wielding

I mean the nerve

Y'all want to regulate gender while you're in the midst of your own transgression concealment

I will not be

Judged by the likes of you

Don't even bother talking to me about what Christ would do

You ain't got the slightest clue

Someone really gave their life for you

To tell me what I got the right to do

Alright I'm through