Sincerely, Kota Lyrics

Baby, I can't lie that I'm psychotic

I've been dying here, baby, to be honest

I don't even like it, I'm sipping gin and tonic They said I had the wheel, but I was never on It

Baby to be fair, that I'm a little toxic

I used all my strength just to try and box it

The devil got a hold of me and I can't even stop it

You know that she is crazy so you could never top it

I just feel that I'm so worthless All I ever wanted was to buy you Gucci purses

Mother's about to die, yeah, I've been feeling wordless

Everything is crazy like I'm working with a circus

Praying up to God, I've been looking for my purpose

Girl, I'm depressed and around you I get nervous

Only way to talk is to speak through these verses

Only way I'm fine is with these drugs I purchase

Baby, I can lie and say that I'm alright I'm okay, girl, I can fight

I'm still me, I'm pushing towards the light

I take these drugs to get me high

Baby, I can say that I'll be fine In this storm, girl, I can write

All these waves, girl, I can ride These are the lies that I can type

But to be real, girl, I'm so sad

I've been having nightmares about my dad

Why do I still cling to the past

I've been drinking, I'm on my last

I just need time but it's moving so fast

Am I going to make it or am I just trash

Oh dear God, did I make the cast

I just want to grow but I don't have the cash

Time to make a change, yeah, I've been way too patient

Spending too much time just dancing with Satan

I'm fucked up and I don't want to face it I think I'm bleeding out, girl, I can taste it

Baby, I can't lie that I am not okay

I don't even know where I want to stay

I just want to die wherever I can lay

I just cashed my check and I'm almost out of pay

Baby, I can lie that I might be insane I've been stressing out, yeah, I think I'm going crazy

All I want to do is blow out all my brains

Baby, I'm not lying when I say I'm not okay

Sincerely, Kota