Eternal Muse Lyrics

Losing my mind

That doesn't make me special

Thought patterns stagnant

I don't deserve a medal

Suicidal thoughts

A rose without the petals

Naively I thought

We were in this together

Don't want no one's pity

That only makes it worse

Happiness fleeting

Only coming in spurts

Coming up short

What was it worth

Molecules in my body

I want to disperse

And in the inverse I'm stuck here

Swept up and spent up

Exhausted all my options

Wish I could have kept up

Lost my reason

Somewhere I messed up

Sometimes I wish the universe

Would just accept us

And I'm bent up and pent up

Like I'm on a leash

I can't seem to break these chains

Praying for a release

And there's no peace I can see

Only an increase

In the pain that I'm feeling

I see it in my dreams

And I can't find my way out

No matter how hard I try

And I can't find my way out

No matter how hard I try

I hate that you only see possibilities

When you're not here

That the only way to be free

Is for me to disappear

That I couldn't provide for you

It was never ideal

That this whole ordeal

Only brought you fear

Brought out the worst in you

And back to old habits

When it got hard

You were afraid of my reactions

And that's okay

Whatever happens, happens

I know you'll do fine

In my absence

I know you'll probably say

That none of this is true

That the problem wasn't me

That the problem was you

That I did nothing wrong

You just couldn't see it through

That the past is the past

And I could start anew without you

But that's not true

And I see that as fact

You know I'd never ask

For any time back

That every moment with you

I always felt on track

The best moments of my life

More than I could have asked

I know I shouldn't depend on you

But it's hard not to

Waited half my life for you

Wish there was more that I could do

Actually thought

I was enough for you

Well, that can't be true

Waited half my life for you

Nightmares do come true

Blue blue electric blue

That's the color of my room

Missed my cue

Wish it wasn't true

And I hate to argue about a

Secret rendezvous

Glad you gave up the booze

My eternal muse

And I don't want to misuse my heart

I don't have the energy for that

Wish I was blessed from the start

Wish I didn't feel so detached

And I'm attached to you

By what I feel is God's will

But I'm sure you'd disagree

And I know I'll love you until

I no longer have the ability

Vividly I'll always see you

When I close my eyes

Where your hand

Is always close to mine

Where our steps will always rhyme

Where our fates are intertwined

Where from each other

Our steps aren't far behind

Rewinding time to

When everything was fine

No promises to undermine

The perfect timeline

The stars always aligned

No deadlines

No confines

Always enough time

And I can't find my way out

No matter how hard I try

And I can't find my way out

But maybe I will in due time