any kind of happy Lyrics

Once I get out of my bed I swear that I'll do it

Nightmares in my head take room from dreams, I can't pursue it

Rotations of creations that I push into my past

Because I'm infinitely too depressed for all of this to last

I don't bother to say hi because I'd rather be alone

And I never say goodbye whenever I hang up the phone

Because my stupid brain gets too attached to everyone I meet

And the ones I really love are the ones that I can't keep

I swear it's done tomorrow, but I know that that's a lie

And I'd tell my mom I love her, but instead let out a sigh

Complicated ends to simple stupid problems

And I'd let you get closer to me, but I tie a noose too often

Because I'm too depressed, I'm far too stressed, I'm running out of options

I can't hear me yet, you could have guessed, my heart is up for auction

Come quickly, quietly, or else my brain may get afraid

Of holding on to love from my relationships I've made

I love too far, I love too fast, my love's run out of time

For myself, I drink, until my death, my life's burnt down the line

I wonder if you think of me whenever you get lonely

Because the love you gave to me last week, I swear it wasn't phony

I'll write a note, I'll send it off with no address attached

That way I can be certain that my heart isn't unlatched

The wind soars fast beneath me and I plummet through my dreams

My heart zips down, my stomach turns, my brain rips at its seams

I don't think that I was built for any kind of happy

Because this rotting in my bed, it isn't romantic, and it definitely isn't sappy