I'm done feeling things ain't nobody gonna ever understand

I'm done feeling things I ain't ever gonna fucking comprehend

Got one chance feeling like a person again, and I'm not a fan

I'm done feeling everything that put me inside of this place again

I got it under control

Fixing the things that could get me alone

I'm afraid of myself, and it hurts to the bones

And it sucks when it's all that you know

All on my own

Thought I could fix the things that were wrong

Thought I could patch the wounds and move on

Feeling a strange way to make everything still be the same

Guess I'll never change

Maybe I'm just not the boy that I see in the glass

Maybe I'm not the guy that can love and it lasts

And I'm just invested in too much

I cast projection of life while I sit in the past

I ghost my life away

I can't love too much, it's a risk I take

I make my own pain yours

How is that the way to make someone love you?

I just hesitate to let anybody in, cause it's a game I play

I like to see if you're the one who's gonna leave, or stay

I try to hold myself

But I can't contain the sudden urge to explode and relieve the pain

Can't help but expect that you'll go away

Instead of chasing, I just sit and watch you go

I take every measure to ensure I'm never fully safe

I'm scared one day that you'll hate the weight

And let it go