when the lights go out Lyrics

I been high key wishing that my heart would stop

And my legs would buckle

That in any time of need I would topple over and just pass away subtle

'Cause I don't wanna seem so weak asking friends for help

Then I ain't gonna be the confident and cocky funny guy I try to sell

If they see this variation of me then their mind is gonna melt

Saying how'd it happen to the happy one?

How's it dark for the one who always brought the sun?

Why's it all depressing for the one who made like every situation fun?

Lots of questions on my suffering, I'm wondering like all the same shit

Lots of pushing buttons anytime a person asks and I'm having trouble doing my explaining

If you ever see me out in public please just shake my hand, take a picture with me

Tell me that I'm gonna make it through

Damn I hate the world like anytime I look at you

Put a mask on just to cause a smile but they wouldn't do the same for you

This reflection is just weighing heavy on my conscience

People hitting up my phone but they ain't doing it to check up on me

All these bitches on some nonsense

Everyday I'm wishing that heart just pauses

Let me get relief I'm always wanting