the thought of you Lyrics

All the time I question everything

And I feel like it's wrong

Just to pool my thoughts together wishing the list wasn't so long

And you tell me that I'm selfish

And I know that it's the truth

For who would sit inside her bedroom wishing that I could be with you

And I tell myself I'm worthy but I know that I am not

I will isolate myself

And my skin will start to rot

And my heart will bust to pieces

They're too small to just pick up

See our lives will flash before my eyes

And my blood will fill the cup

Cause it's so scary

Just the thought of you

And I am married

To the thought of you

See it's 6am and I am half awake and I am lost

I've been up all night and my heart feels like it's about to pop

All the drugs I take will overwhelm me 'til I am but dust

Blowing through the wind wishing that I could find another rush

But the wind will die and I will wish for peace inside my mind

Need to get away from hoping all the days will turn to nights

And my thoughts will stray and I will be okay to just get high

Excuses I will tell myself until my final night

Cause it's so scary

Just the thought of you

And I am married

To the thought of you

Cause it's so scary

Just the thought of you

And I am married

To the thought of you