January 2019 Lyrics

I've been thinking of your tiny town

And holding hands on your ice covered streets

And wondering what the fuck went wrong when you left me that January

And when I'm talking with our friends

The ones you always believed over me

They say they think I deserve better

Your friends always tell me I should leave

So what the fuck do they know?

Is there something that I don't?

Cause I've got a feeling something happened when you left

But you're not gonna talk

And I never forget

Don't you feel it?

That dulling ache

I've been thinking of my lonely nights

And how I changed in 2019

When I was at my rock bottom

And you abandoned me

But I finally found a little piece of mind

In new friends when you withdrew

And you still have no idea the kind of hell that I went through

Oh, don't you feel it?

That dulling ache from the distance

I want your permanent persistence

Tell me you're in this

Tell me it's endless

So thank God, they were there to listen to

The fucked up thoughts I was sorting through

You don't want to know what happened

Or hear about it, but I'll never forget

Cause you never wanna listen to

The fucked up things I'm going through

It felt nice not to have to only count on you