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So I've been not wanting to try

Cause I don't even wanna ask why

Am I catching feelings just to be the villain

Cause I don't wanna hurt you

Cause I know that you've been healing

And I know I've been just feeling like a villain

Not even chilling my heart out

Cause I don't understand

Why am I in this sucka shit

Cause I fall in love way too easy

And I know I'm looking like I've been so breezy

Cause I don't understand why do I fucking try

Cause all I get is rejection

Cause I cannot stand this mission

It's driving me wild

And I cannot stand there just watch you smile

Cause I don't wanna wait a while

And I cannot stand off my little fake smile

Cause I really want somebody

To end up loving me for who I am

And I know I cannot sing like it's my own space jam

And I know it's just 3am now

And I cannot wear that smile anymore

Cause the darkness drags a hold on me

Cause I don't

But it's just a enemy

Deep inside of me

And it's fighting a war

And I cannot fucking win

And I know I'm looking at this shit again

Like I'm just trapped again

But at least I try

To get over my fear

Cause I don't wanna disappear

Cause You gotta understand that I don't feel like I'm from here

I feel like I'm just an alien, a freak and a outcast

Cause no one wants to see me finish first

They just wanna see me last

No matter how much I lost for that fucking shit

I will never win this season again

And I know I'm singing it with another grin

And I know I cannot get out of this little bit of rut

And I know that I will just find me someone

That will heal the pain

Just for a little while

But we can be so wild

Cause I don't want it to be so mild

Cause I don't feel like a child

I feel just like a man

Cause according to the plan

And you know that you cannot change this man

And I'm sorry bro

And I know I'm out here

Feeling like I'm sub zero

With my frozen heart

And I know I cannot fall apart

Deep inside of me

Cause I don't wanna love

Then I do again

It's just so confusing

And I know I'll never win

Cause maybe one day

I can finally say that I won