Soldier Boy Lyrics

Soldier boy, oh my little soldier boy

I'll need you to shut the fuck up

Legends and stories are passed down, from generations to the next

Blankets tucked tight, turn on the nightlight

Mom told me a story tonight

About a monster who haunts her

One who would threw her through walls

Who ruptured her spleen

Left her to bleed

This is a story, I don't want to believe

This is too much for a young boy

Can I just go out and play

I don't want to hear about this incident

Can I just be young, and be innocent?

But I grew up still way too fast

Had to protect mom from this man

He never did call or come around

Never once a letter or even a sound

10 years pass of hearing moms ghosts past

Set in stone memories of monsters shadows cast

Now I stand strong, but I feel weak

So much to say, but I don't speak

I was blinded to find my own truth

Forced to see this man through biased views

I didn't even have a single choice to choose

Empty, angry, she just left me confused, like

What would I say, even if I had the chance

Cause my youth was lost without the guidance

I cannot look up to a man who wasn't there

I cannot be now, the little boy who was scared

I have to travel out in this world all alone

But I'm grown, I can do it on my own

It's hard when you're young, not to love, not to care

But your love isn't lost, when it wasn't ever there

Traveling through a maze through a constant haze

Uncertainty, chaos, will never phase

It's hard to walk straight, when you're always sideways

Like lost in a thought that's filled with crossways

Is he really as bad as moms depiction

Or should I take it as a work of fiction

Her memories and stories are like a silver spoon

Passed down like a family heirloom

But when the movie ends and the credits roll

A light will shine on every scary shadow

And the moving faces formed out my bedroom window

Will morph back into branches, when the wind blows

Memories turn on, off, hot then cold

In a flash I'm back to being 13 years old

To being 13 years old

And it goes like this

Get off the bus, with my cheap black backpack

Grey clouds, head down, no friends to wave and look back

I'm the crumpled pieces of paper that hides

My own wide rule, no college inside

Another walk of shame into the home alone

Mom and sis are home oh fuck no

I'd probably be shallow if I had more

But I was left hollow, here's a corny pill to swallow

My physics prescription, is the shit rolling down hill

Open up your mouth, son, here comes your refill

I was mom's soldier boy

My sister was her chew toy

A shack made on sand, can easily be destroyed

Build us up to tear us down

"Joke with me you silly clown

What the fuck you doing now

Betray me now you little fowl

Run away you little cow

Her new kids were horses, while her old kids became pigs

Living in our own sty

Looking through this kids eyes

See my world shrink as I watch it

Spin and pass by

Do what I say you better do it now

Get off the couch and shut your fucking mouth

Spanking, yelling, screaming, only getting worse with time

Neighbor knocks, Mom answers, Yeah, everything is fine

A couple hours later still

Bitching at us all

A smile on her face, yeah we're

Dysfunctional

Even now I never really thought its all her fault

But even if we're shitty kids she's supposed to be adult

The best show on tv was Simpson's one through ten

I would know I watched every single one of them

The funny thing is we played the real life part

Mom as dad and Marge, sister Lisa, I was Bart

Whenever I'd get mad I thought

I'll fucking show her

But I always struck out when i tried to hit a homer