So Cold Lyrics

So cold I just been so cold in my own zone

Traveling down this road all alone

Got nowhere to go cant even go home

Tired of overthinking and still don't know

I just been so cold in my own zone

Traveling down this road all alone

Got nowhere to go cant even go home

Tired of overthinking and still don't know

I'm starting to feel like nothing is real

Pop a couple of pills to heal I probably will

Give in to the silence of my ideas if I'm keeping it real

I been thinking about ending it right now to see how it feels because

I been drinking and I been smoking

And on top of all my depression my heart is broken

And I just can't seem to deal with it I'm at my lowest

Man just writing these words on this paper has got me choking up

Trying to bring you into the mind of a thinker

But you can't blame me if you don't find any answers

Because I'm still searching to I'm twenty two so I'll fuck a groupie

Ignore the pain and hate only one who could get through to me was

Maybe Wayne or Jay or maybe Royce or James

Todd Smith but how the fuck could they help me they don't know me

I may be insane I may need therapy but that shit won't fix me

So I hide and pray all I know is I am

So cold I just been so cold in my own zone

Traveling down this road all alone

Got nowhere to go cant even go home

Tired of overthinking and still don't know

I just been so cold in my own zone

Traveling down this road all alone

Got nowhere to go cant even go home

Tired of overthinking and still don't know

I'm starting to feel like an automobile

Because it seems like everyone controls me they steering the wheel

I got the underrated problem of trying to prove myself

But if life is unfair to everyone don't that make it fair think

Seclusion is not the conclusion but I choose to do it

And use music as my way to maneuver through this sadness

Plus deep thought gets you wise so before you close your eyes

Think of everyone who lost their lives and that your going to die blink

And that shit is way to much to handle

Who is really there I just I can't tell

But I know for sure I'll get the respect I deserve

If I can rhyme these words to tell my story even if I slur drink

Nobody understands so I put gun in hand

Went to pull the trigger and the fucking dumb thing jammed

Man it's like five degrees open oven for heat

If I stay in this place any longer my hearts going to freeze I am

So cold I just been so cold in my own zone

Traveling down this road all alone

Got nowhere to go cant even go home

Tired of overthinking and still don't know

I just been so cold in my own zone

Traveling down this road all alone

Got nowhere to go cant even go home

Tired of overthinking and still don't know

So what I decide to do when I am feeling this way

Is push everyone away including friends and family

How selfish of me to blind to see them to are dealing with pain

The pain of seeing their son brother or nephew moving astray

I been on the wrong road for a long time

And I'm someone no one knows fuck a cosign

Feeling happiness seems like it was my old life

I promise mama it wasn't your fault don't cry

This world just fucked me up

I have seen way to much blood

Like when we went to Central for no reason just for fun

Stopped in at Wayside to have a drink and catch a buzz

Than that kid got stabbed right next to me

First time I seen human guts

Or like when Manny died with them other guys

Than the school system started selling shirts and wristbands

Because they knew we would buy to represent that we were

Mourning their demise piece of shits profited off their deaths

Fuck utica community schools

So cold I just been so cold in my own zone

Traveling down this road all alone

Got nowhere to go cant even go home

Tired of overthinking and still don't know

I just been so cold in my own zone

Traveling down this road all alone

Got nowhere to go cant even go home

Tired of overthinking and still don't know