Vacant Lyrics

Depression, anxiety

When it built up inside me

Finally, knew how to fight it outta me

But I'm an oddity

Never thought I'd lose someone to suicide

Til one day I heard my mama on the phone cry

My uncle took his own life

Seeing the tears in her eyes

Never gonna see her brother another day or no night

Dangerous feeling inside

Demons peeling your hide

Darkest thoughts that you can't walk off, deep and seep in your mind

And we left speechless

Why couldn't he reach us?

Looking for clues and pieces

Like what the fuck's reason?

The family heart be bleeding

No one wanted you leaving

Now you leaving us grieving

Feels like a dream until we see the casket six feet deep

In the earth not breathing

I'll never understand going that full length

You're full of pain, but that pain just continues to stay

To the people you left the very next day

Know your loved when feeling so mentally taken

And I know it's tough, but I know that you can make it

Please don't give up, just know that we're here for your saving

And I know it's rough, but call when you're mentally vacant

Silence is the killer, thinking that you can deal with

The feeling that left you bleeding, knowing you're feeling defeated

Help is what you should be seeking, No you ain't weak

I believe in you

You got the strength to overcome it, ain't no way you gonna plummet

There's always a reason, I said there's always a reason

Family, passion, love, fun, so much you be leaving

Behind even if you feel nothing at this current time

We lost so many others and we just don't need another

We grieving while you suffer, pain in all the directions

No perfect way to deflect it, but man, we gotta start somewhere

Fuck a funeral chair, breathing the saddest of airs

You may feel so unaware, but I swear living's the option

So just sit and stop it, what you're holding just, drop it

You feel alone, but you're not man

The pain you feel is temporary

I get it's scary, but the help you get will dig you out from really feeling buried

Know your loved when feeling so mentally taken

And I know it's tough, but I know that you can make it

Please don't give up, just know that we're here for your saving

And I know it's rough, but call when you're mentally vacant

You see a list of names, details of reasons they break

Photos lined up all smiling, you wouldn't think of them dying

I think the about the decisions, how to keep them from committing

Etika drowned in Manhattan, how the fuck does that happen?

Robin Williams left hanging, claiming his life in a bedroom

The substance abuses that leads a bunch to they death too

My uncle gone, shot himself from his own palms

Shit surprises everybody, listen if you feeling muddy

You got reasons to be living, give another day a chance

The effect you have on others is actually really grand

Please get that helping hand, one will truly understand

If I'm talking to you on this mic, well then it's time

To pierce that darkness with light, to beat that force with your might

We may not see your own signs, but you have nothing to hide

Thoughts are at an all time low

But I know, the last thing the world needs is to see you go

Know your loved when feeling so mentally taken

And I know it's tough, but I know that you can make it

Please don't give up, just know that we're here for your saving

And I know it's rough, but call when you're mentally vacant