Tired Lyrics

I was once young and dumb, I'm still young but you get it

It feels like I don't live out my dreams

It seems like that shit's forbidden

When I was lost, I was hurting, trying to get by wasn't working

I was screaming for help

Guess nobody heard me, I fell on my knees

Asking God for some mercy

Don't think he heard me at all

Told me he was everywhere

But I don't think he's been near me ever

I'm trying to be patient and wait with a smile on my face

But too many feelings involved

I want to believe, but I'm hurting

How could I believe he chose me

Judge if you want, ain't got too many friends

I didn't listen, that's why I'm lonely

Now I'm fourteen and counting

Nothing's better than what it was

I'm hurting inside, I'm crying inside

I'm dying inside, I'm trying to be what everyone wants to see

But it's harder than it looks

Are y'all real or fake?

Cause all y'all did was steal and take

I can't handle my emotions

It's just too much commotion

I remember back when I was happy

Just like you are now

I wish I felt the same

But all I feel is pain

Never taken seriously

Always told I was faking

No matter how many cuts there were

Y'all would say, oh he's doing it for clout

Oh he's faking, oh he wants attention

I fear the day that I die

I got tears running down my face

twenty goddamn seven

Some days I wish the pain would end

It seems to be a trend nowadays

It's been several years since I've been fine

Never really had someone to call mine

And I'm tired of feeling this way

I don't know what to do no more

Don't wanna be broken no more

Don't know who to trust no more

Don't trust anyone no more

I'm trying to restart

I'm trying to feel better

But it's not working

I'm tired of searching for God's help

When he's nowhere near

I'm tired of lying

I'm tired of trying

I'm tired of crying

I don't know if I'm going to hell

Don't know who to tell

I feel like I need to yell just to get my point across