Goin Thru

Just talk to pops, now I see that he still holdin' on

The things I say, I gotta watch, they wanna picture me wrong

The only thing I'm wishin' for is heaven, havin' a phone

I'll call you instead of me, still here, bein' all alone

But tell me, I swear it's hard for me just to stand up

Don't care about what they say, mama taught me never give a fuck

But since you passed, ain't gon' lie, I feel like that I'm outta luck

My head down, they said, lil' boy, you should pick your head up

But heads up, never win, I used to take a loss

I made a promise to myself, I can't stop till I'm the boss

I can't sleep at night, in my bed, I just turn and talk

With all this pain that's in me, I just wish that I could sleep it off