It Aint Easy

I march to the beat of my own drum

Sometimes i lose rhythm forget what i am and i focus on isn't

Instead my present my past is my prison my mind would escape it and then it revisit

The things I remembered they ruin my feelings my confidence rocky it wasn't appealing

Inside was a murder a hell of a killing something was missing and wasn't appearing

Wanted to trust but it came with a cost why would i wanna put up with the billing

Sometimes i cried my eyes were tearing I put up a wall like im making a building

Things got hotter than food when its searing things had to turn but i had to be willing

Hurting so much i was ready for healing

It was me against the world like scarface had my head down like em lookin at the dirt

Had to put my heart in a hard case felt locked out like I need a password

Stuck between a rock and a hard place my chest and my motherfuckin back hurt