the secret Lyrics

I sold my soul

But nobody knows

I'm not givin' up anything I want

I'm takin' control

No matter what it means

Don't you leave me

Don't you leave me here to face it all alone

I'll do anything to keep you as my own

And no matter what it costs I'll find a way

Yeah, no matter what it costs I'll find a way

Ooh, I'm impatient

When I think about ya I get anxious

I know I've been away

But there isn't a day that goes by

I don't try to remember your face

And I know it's impossible

But that's not gonna stop me from tryin' to stay

Ain't no one gotta know

What we do on the low

We can go and keep on livin' this way

I don't wanna go out like this (Okay)

But I don't know how to cope

What if I slow down and miss

What if the last shot I got wit' ya

Rolls out the rim

I just keep goin' in circles

Again and again

What if it comes down to this

That I can't but I have to

Buryin' my head in my hands in the bathroom

Everyday I hide from my family the sad truth

That I had to have you

Uh

Cause you feel like

You're everything I ever wanted now

So don't you let me keep my head on straight

And though our loves forbidden now

Just let me fight for us

Everything will work out in the end

The end

I won't let our secret bring us down

In the end

The end

I'll have so much power that nothing can stop me

I'm so sick of myself

Pull down that hard liquor off of the shelf

And pour up then throw up

I'm so numb this don't help

Tried so much to grow up

But no luck then oh well

Every attempt to let go

Feels like goin' through hell

So just swear you won't tell

Uh

I don't know how long we can keep this up

I don't know how many excuses

That we'll come up with to appease them but

I don't need a reason other than you

Leave it up to chance

And pray that they keep on believin' us

If I had one word of caution

To offer myself 'fore I run out of options

It's this

You ain't got no time to be honest

Be careful which lies you get lost in

Uh

I sold my birthright and

I sold my soul

In the moment it felt right

Kept you for myself but still

Nobody knows

I'm sure it's only a matter of time

But I still fight 'cause

I'm not giving' up anything I want

I'm takin' control

I don't care

No matter what that means

I'm so scared of

Don't you leave me

You have allowed this

Dark lord to twist your mind

Until now

Until now you have become the very thing

You swore to destroy

Swore to destroy