twice the pride Lyrics

Welcome back

Don't worry

It was only a vision of the future like you said

Well, what did you see

Uh, let me explain

Uh, welcome back to the waking world

Steady askin' will they recur

The nightmares and the premonitions

Ultimately visions of hanging on every word

Uh, and not because they pay attention

When I'm on the mic, under the lights a couple listen

But the tension lies in me tryin' to be a Christian

And finding that even lies and deceit

Would be of more interest

To the religious than anything sustaining

So long as the lies and deceit can be entertaining

So degrading, raping the whole meaning

It was meant to bring me, now this shit just brings me

Down, down, down

A down, down, down, down, down

A down, down, down, down, down, down, down

Twice the pride, double the fall

How could a legacy survive

The test of time

We're all rotten to the core

How can I radiate an uncorrupted light

If I'm too blind

To see temptation at my door

Uh, skinny jeans and dainty chains

Flowy shirts, I'm throwin' merch from off the stage

So I guess I know what works, and it's all the rage

And then I do that shit at church, then the Gospel pays

Cause they'd be all dismayed if I told the whole truth

Like the rich young ruler, say give up all that you have

How many of us could do it

Put the cross on my back, how many would nail me to it

Most of 'em the same ones who wear and even tattoo it

God it's so easy to be a phony

See me on your phone screen, but never see me when I'm lonely

Go from holy to horny real quick, but the trick

Is you only see the former on my IG pic

And I'm sick to my stomach

Cause they want the same illusion in my lyrics

Hence the emphasis on my appearance

I read the word of God and I know they won't wanna hear it

They want experiences and call that the Holy Spirit

And my fear is that I might give it to 'em

If it's true the medium is the message like Marshall McLuhan

Said, and I assume it is, then I'd be some kind of angel

Elevated, illuminated from the right angles

Drop the act, I would if I could but then these people would

Not be back, they tell me good job and I

Copy that, believe the affirmation 'til it's not an act at all

On this stage I stand tall, need somebody to

Knock me back

Down, down, down

A down, down, down, down, down

A down, down, down, down, down, down, down

Twice the pride, double the fall

How can a messenger of God

Become unflawed

Perfected by affiliation

Pride is nurtured under thunderous applause

To lead the cause 'til the end

Everybody's got secrets for strangers, believers and fakers

Cause fakers believe that their faith can be played up

The masses receive simple phrases they made up

Now selling your soul is the price for a trade up

Oh, you need a sure fire way to

Avert their attention away from the truth

With power and money and sex you're in danger

Of losing it all when they let go of you

Now where we at? The story is told

Through somewhat thematic, dramatic tones

Don't mean it ain't factual. I suppose

You think I exaggerate what I wrote

To prove a point, and you would be half right

Half away from the goal of realizing what's at stake when you go

From bein' a boy with dreams to points and screams with no accountability

The poison seeps into me as

The more the they think I'm righteous, the more I think I am

You ask me what that means, the quickest venom known to man is pride

I'm tryin' to hide the things that hurt my image

But on the inside I justify it all to feel consistent

Til my God-given intellect prevents my logic finishing

And so I aim that gift back at the One who trusted it to me

I can have my cake, I can eat it too

If I'm so great, then I don't need You

God is dead, that don't mean He ain't real

All it means is I got to a place in my head

Where his presence is always concealed

And I begin to grow bitter

Don't impose Your law on me until I cross the river

Answer my philosophies within Your Holy Scriptures

And then we'll talk. How's your walk

I'm wanderin' around but never wonder if I'm lost, uh

Really I'm feelin' free and I can see the Promised

Land is still a possibility I'll redefine it

Like, what if it's up to me to rebuild Eden, I can

Make it a thing, y'all, follow me, yeah, look at me, I got it

Down, down, down

A down, down, down, down, down

A down, down, down, down, down, down, down

Twice the pride, double the fall

I got it, I got it

I got it down

Time to lead my brand new army on the battleground

Time to stand for somethin' higher than a man in the clouds

Uh, I object to the objectives

I know it sounds a bit reckless

You better check the perspective

Uh, truth, respect it

Ain't nobody wanna know how I won the election

Proof is that I do what I want

And can't nobody try to tell me I'm a fake or a fraud

Uh, I am consistent

At least I'm less a hypocrite than when I was a Christian

Least I mean it when I say I'm goin' to fuck the system

I'm the new voice of truth, shut up and listen, uh

Forbidden love can be ugly, but her beauty is natural

They know I'm up to something as the secret unravels

I probably got it comin' now if somebody tattles

And if only God can judge me he'll be bangin' His gavel

Order in the court

I say I don't believe in God no more, that's my retort

To any accusations y'all bring forth, my last resort

Will be apostasy

Indignantly insisting what I did was never wrong to me

Let's think about this logically, everyone knows biology

Sexual satisfaction is natural and monogamy less so

If sex was a free market economy

I'll never let you legalist bastards have a monopoly

Stop! Let me go, I've got to sell my soul

To keep my ego intact, with my back to the wall

The truth is closin' in on me I know it

The only hope I've got left is to crack theosis

Oh, shit. The only way to spare my pride, regicide

You best beware what I have in mind

My designs to realize the divine in myself

I know you think I'm out my mind and act like you wanna help

You wanna know how it felt to be portrayed as saintly

When behind the scenes you like to drink and sleep with your lady

And you know it ain't wrong per se, but always felt shady

Cause it's fine as long as people don't find out that's the main thing

And now that they've made me, got to cover my ass

And it's too late to save me, I ain't gettin' a pass

So now I'm set on takin' what I wanted to have

Without a compromise, this time I'm gettin' 'em back

For all the lies, the hypocrisy and false impressions

For the self-righteous dogma and resulting repression

I once was blind to the cause of my own depression

The body of Christ, so called, is deceptive

Oh, you're the ones elected, anointed, called, and protected

From being called into question by people with real objections

Actual human lives in the balance, you won't accept them

For one reason or other, casually neglect them

Don't drink, smoke, chew, fuck, cuss, vote blue

Vote red, golden rule: do what the fuck you're told to do

What the fuck I'm supposed to do

Shit was fine when no one knew

So I conclude the problem is not with me, but rather with you

So I conclude the problem is not with me, but rather with you

So I conclude the problem is not with me, but

So I conclude, rather with you

So I conclude the problem is not with me, but rather with you

Uh, uh uh

From now on we're doin' things my way

I treat this track like it's Daytona, I'm too lethal for the highway

Good luck keepin' up

All it takes is one wrong turn, then you watch it all burn, uh

So if I gotta use a few strong words, to ensure it's all heard

Then I'm sorry

You may think I've set out to offend you, nah hardly

Please don't think this album's an original story

This already happened, y'all just think about Ravi

Daniel, Carl Lentz, Acton Bowen, Johnny

And it's easy for us all to think we're better than 'em

Easy to speak on these positions that we've never been in

I'm so afraid to go where God sent other men on mission

Cause I could end up like these thirteen songs I hope you listen

Tell me which is greater

Which is greater

The fear of losing faith

Or the faith that casts out fear

Tell me who's your savior

Who's your savior

The man upon the stage

Or the one who gave His life to take your fall

Besides, someone needs to be the poster boy